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  • ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Anorexia 
Hey guys. So every so often I like to post about my recovery with anorexia bc it helps me when I’m able to speak abo...
  • ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Anorexia Hey guys. So every so often I like to post about my recovery with anorexia bc it helps me when I’m able to speak about it. I’m hitting some intense milestones in my recovery. Winter time = jeans... I HATE jeans bc all my jeans are from when I was very sick and I’m struggling to to purchase the next size up bc I’ve never needed to. I no longer have a thigh gap. If you saw my story the other then day you saw I posted about it. It’s been a long time since my thighs have touched and it’s something that’s taking me some time to get used to. I used to think that having a thigh gap and being the skinniest person in the room meant I was “liked” more when in reality I looked like I was dying, and I was. I am FINALLY realizing size doesn’t fucking matter. Size doesn’t determine self worth. size doesn’t. Mean. Shit. This is the first time in most of my life that I’ve been able to say that to myself and actually believe it. Watching my thighs grow while in recovery drove me CRAZY. I mean crazy. I would cry to my boyfriend about it who would always say and STILL says “I think no gap between thighs is far sexier.” And you want to know what I always said back? “Yeah right, you’re just saying that to make me feel better.” Bc that stupid little voice in my head told me the love of my life was lying to my face. LOL nope that little voice is the one lying. Just recently I’ve been able to realize that what my boyfriend says is true. I have been at a stable weight for about 6ish months now. I get weighed weekly with my therapist and every week it gets easier and easier to see that number go up or stay the same. I no longer have these rages for anger and sadness after seeing my weight bc that little voice, Ana is being silenced bc Marley has taken over again. I am in control of my body not Ana. I should have broken up with Ana Years ago. And now it is time where I say, “goodbye Ana, Fuck you for all the pain and suffering you’ve caused me throughout most of my life.” Now... next step to is break up with my anxiety. #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #seldlove #recoveryisworthit
  • 1923 66 6 hours ago
  • I feel most free from anorexia when I have a high sense of self identity. When I know who I am. Therefore, I know the person I really am does not n...
  • I feel most free from anorexia when I have a high sense of self identity. When I know who I am. Therefore, I know the person I really am does not need anorexia. I fight everyday to become her. I fight everyday to beat my limiting beliefs and anxiety. To beat the doubt that stops me from doing things, and the voice that says I don’t deserve or won’t be able to handle the things that go right. I fight to stop the cycle of self punishment, and to finally face life head on. A life that makes me happy without harming my health or my family. A life with more fulfillment and less false security. More joy and less criticism. ⠀ ⠀ As scary as life may be at times, it is less scary than the amount of fear that surfaces each day when struggling with an eating disorder. Anorexia has taken the light out of my life since I was 12, and I refuse to let it come into my adult life. When I get out of hospital this time, I am done fearing weight gain and being obsessive and controlling with food. I’m going to listen to my body more with a good understanding of how much I need, and I’ll eat more without guilt if I want to. I love myself and deserve to be happy whether or not I eat the cleanest most nutritional foods all day everyday. I have waisted too much of my thinking space worried about food. I have much greater things to focus my energy on, and I am more than capable of handling whatever comes my way. I am strong, and this battle only makes a person stronger. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ Skinner: NOT prettier, not more energetic, not happier, not healthier, not more worthy❗️
  • 217 22 2 hours ago
  • Ich dachte mir ich mache mal nicht nur Bilder von meinem LW als Transformation Bilder. Vor 5 Monaten habe ich angefangen ins Gym zu gehen. 
Ich fin...
  • Ich dachte mir ich mache mal nicht nur Bilder von meinem LW als Transformation Bilder. Vor 5 Monaten habe ich angefangen ins Gym zu gehen. Ich finde man sieht zwischen den Bildern schon einen enormen körperlichen Unterschied ,doch was man auf den Bildern nicht sieht, ist was sich in der Zeit im Kopf getan hat. Und das ist so unglaublich viel. Ich hab komplett die Angst vor dem zunehmen verloren, die Angst vor einem Kalorienüberschuss. Ich hab aufgehört ständig nach meiner thigh gap zu suchen. Ich hab aufgehört mich ständig mit Leuten, die dünner als ich sind, zu vergleichen und mich dann schlecht zu fühlen. Ich möchte ein Kommentar ansprechen was letztens von einer Freundin von mir gesagt wurde ,,oh glaub mir wenn Ella was will dann findet sie irgendeinen weg". Das war nicht auf die ES bezogen, aber es macht mich unfassbar glücklich, dass ich wieder so gesehen werde. Ich hab während der ES nicht nur an Gewicht, Lebensfreude und Energie verloren. Ich hab auch immer mehr von mir selbst, von meinen Charakter verloren. Und ich merke wie dieser wieder vollständig da ist. Ich bin endlich wieder die alte. Ich konnte alle Zwänge und schlechten Gedanken vollständig ablegen. Auch wenn ich und die meisten anderen das niemals für möglich gehalten hätten. Irgendwann möchte ich allen Leuten danken, die mich auf dem weg unterstützt haben. Seit ich den Kampf gewonnen habe, den ich gegen mich selbst geführt habe, fühle ich mich stärker als früher. Die ES wird villeicht immer irgendwo in mir bleiben aber ich hab gelernt, dass es den Leuten Scheiß egal ist welche kleidergröße ich habe und es ihnen darauf ankommt wie ich bin. Das ich diejenige bin, die wieder endlos frech ist, der nichts peinlich ist und in der Schule zu 99% immer lacht. Diese Person hatte ich verloren. Auch im NG war sie noch nicht wieder da. Erst seit ich die ES vollkommen hinter mir lasse fange ich an wieder richtig zu leben und mich macht das alles so unfassbar glücklich. Deshalb wollte ich das mit euch teilen. Ihr könnt auch NG haben und trotzdem gefangen sein. Erst wenn ihr lernt loszulassen wird es euch besser gehen!🙇‍♂️❤
  • 737 25 9 hours ago
  • It’s crazy for me to stop and think about how invested I was in having a flat stomach. .
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For YEARS, people. .
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✋🏼 Putting my hand on my stomach...
  • It’s crazy for me to stop and think about how invested I was in having a flat stomach. . . For YEARS, people. . . ✋🏼 Putting my hand on my stomach when I sat down to see if it stayed flat. Lifting up my shirt to see if the size of my stomach had fluctuated in the last hour every time I saw a mirror (ie body-checking before I realized there was a term for it.) My eyes were instinctively drawn to every magazine cover that said something about a “flat stomach” no matter how outlandish the claim was. 👀 At one point in high school I even ordered a box of protein bars with some weird-sounding ingredient that was supposed to rev your metabolizing, and I ate them in secret because I knew my mom would think something was up if she found them. . . Well, something WAS up. And that something was that I’d been brainwashed *by diet culture* to think the way my body naturally looked, the way I’m prone to put on fat, was inherently messed up. Like my own actual body couldn’t be trusted to know what it was doing, but somehow Jillian Michaels could!! 🤦‍♀️ . . I’m glad those headlines no longer grab my attention. I’m glad I’m no longer compulsively checking and criticizing my stomach every chance I get. . . It turns out that through exposure, compassion, & curiosity about your own body, you can change how you see it. You can start to see parts you that you once couldn’t stand as harmless, and then, as kinda cute ;-) . . Feeling cute isn’t a necessary condition, nor is it by any stretch the meaning or end goal of body positivity, but point is that the boundaries of “cute” or “beautiful” that YOU tell YOURSELF only apply when you’re a certain size, can actually be shifted quite dramatically. . . I love this picture of me. In years past, it would’ve pushed me into a spiral of body hatred. Hey, our minds are more flexible—and more loving—than we give them credit for💁‍♀️ . What part of your body have you struggled most to accept? Or what has helped you in the process of body acceptance? Let’s chat💛
  • 806 85 9 hours ago
  • Le plus impressionnant dans une transformation ce n’est pas le changement physique, mais bien le changement de mentalité.
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Je peux vous dire que c...
  • Le plus impressionnant dans une transformation ce n’est pas le changement physique, mais bien le changement de mentalité. . Je peux vous dire que ce qui m’a le plus marqué dans ma transformation physique c’est la confiance en moi que j’ai gagné et aussi cet état d’esprit que « tout est possible » car oui, tout est possible avec du travail. . Je pense que c’est cette transformation qui m’a forgé un mental qui fait qu’aujourd’hui, je ne trouve rien « difficile » en soi, il suffit juste d’avoir une certaine discipline. . Si je fais ce post aujourd’hui c’est pour vous motiver, vous dire que vous aussi, vous pouvez le faire, il suffit juste d’avoir ce déclic et cette volonté de changer. . Personne ne pourra vous donner la motivation, c’est à vous de la voir et de vous dire « Ok, il est temps que je change ». Beaucoup échouent dans leurs transformations, mais c’est souvent parce qu’au fond d’eux, ils n’ont pas vraiment tant envie que cela de changer ou alors, qu’ils ne sont pas prêt à faire les sacrifices pour changer, car oui, se transformer physiquement demande des sacrifices.
  • 242 28 11 hours ago
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Make it a #HABIT to eat #GOODFOOD. This was my #EPIC burger and #VANILLA #MALT #MILKSHAKE I had for #DINNER last night AND I smashed it ALL. 👊...
  • . - Make it a #HABIT to eat #GOODFOOD. This was my #EPIC burger and #VANILLA #MALT #MILKSHAKE I had for #DINNER last night AND I smashed it ALL. 👊😋 I’ve started eating what sounds good to me and what seems “normal” rather than focusing on having the perfect components at every meal. It’s so normal to have a burger, shake and fries. So what if I didn’t get a fruit in or if I technically had 2 desserts with my shake and a cookie after. 🤷🏻‍♀️ It’s exactly what my body wanted and what sounded good to my brain. 🙄 Later last night I was craving berries and I made a delicious parfait. ALL the food I ate was FOOD. It wasn’t good or bad — it was just food. It did the job of satisfying and nourishing me and there’s no need to overthink it. 🙅🏻‍♀️👍 - Keep things simple and keep listening to your intuition. It’s there for a reason. There’s something inside of us that tells us EXACTLY where and what we need to be doing at the present moment. Stop ignoring that, it’s the voice of your #SOUL. ☺️💫 #HAPPY #HUMPDAY! I hope it’s #AWESOME. 😘💋 - 🍔🍔🍔🍟🍟🍟 -
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  • It feels so wrong to cry. I keep reminding myself that in reality crying is a positive coping skill. If I want to feel alive, I'm going to have to feel the highs AND the lows. #anorexiarecovery
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  • Sushi bowl for lunch 🤩.. rice, fried egg, avocado, pumpkin, salad and seaweed!! Yum 🤤🤤 feeling a bit better over the last 2 days since implement...
  • Sushi bowl for lunch 🤩.. rice, fried egg, avocado, pumpkin, salad and seaweed!! Yum 🤤🤤 feeling a bit better over the last 2 days since implementing yoga and meditation back into my routine. Still struggling a lot with body imagine but when am I not 🙄.. been trying hard over the last few days to stop calorie counting so far I’ve made it 2 days without tracking.. anxiety is high but I know ultimately I need go challenge old habits if I ever want to get rid of them and move on to better things. Hope your all having a good week! Sending lots of love 💕
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  • So I haven’t posted in so long cause I’ve been trying to stay positive and tried to fight my ed but the cravings of binge and purging always come a...
  • So I haven’t posted in so long cause I’ve been trying to stay positive and tried to fight my ed but the cravings of binge and purging always come around. I haven’t purged ever since the burrito incident and currently I just ate McDonald’s and now I feel like purging it. I h8 myself.
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  • Let’s talk EATING PATTERN COMPARISONS. Should you in your anorexia recovery have the same hunger patterns as those around you? No! Should you in yo...
  • Let’s talk EATING PATTERN COMPARISONS. Should you in your anorexia recovery have the same hunger patterns as those around you? No! Should you in your anorexia recovery eat the same as everyone else? No! Because we don’t all eat the same things! So it’s impossible! (TW) I used to and still do compare my meals with everyone else’s when eating with a group or with one person. I was devoted to eating the healthiest and lowest calories and generally LEAST amount of food than everyone else. (TW over) but when I eat a salad for lunch, maybe there are voices telling me I am no longer hungry, but I tend to still be! This is what happens to me after I deprive myself of food! (And some people’s bodies just need more food). So why are we taught to feel ashamed if we don’t eat healthily infront of others, or if we want more food? I personally would prefer a burger to a salad any day (unless the salad is truly exquisite, which does exist!). So why have I hid that for years? Another thing I look back at now and laugh at, only to realize I nearly always follow that nowadays. Break out of these habits! Show the real you and be honest (start with being honest to YOURSELF) about what you like! I know it’s easier said than done, but your body will thank you!!! And you might learn that you’re not as alone as you might have thought... • • #anorexiarecovery #salad #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #edfam #motivation #staystrong #salmon #delicious #truetoyourself #honesty #portioncontrol
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  • I’ve been having a really tough time lately since gaining some weight. Here’s me 2 months ago in Malaysia when I was a little bit smaller. I loved ...
  • I’ve been having a really tough time lately since gaining some weight. Here’s me 2 months ago in Malaysia when I was a little bit smaller. I loved my visible chest plate, I have this strange desire to see my bones come through more and more. It wasn’t until earlier today when my boss told me that these bones make me look like an alien that I realised how abnormal it is to feel this way. How ‘normal people’ don’t have the same desire as me and apparently even find it unattractive. Yet I remember this shoot and I remember how fat I felt, I cried about my weight for the whole time I was in Malaysia, I also turned down a bikini shoot because I felt so fat and couldn’t bare the thought of someone else seeing. No matter how much I weigh or what size I am. No matter how many jobs I get, or how many compliments I receive, my feelings never change. I always feel grossly overweight. Eating disorders suck. You may never know the mental challenges some people face every day. Just think about this and always be kind ❣️ . . . . #realrecovery #recovery #love #model #lingerie #lingeriemodel #modeling #hk #hkig #hkmodel #hkphotography #bulimiarecovery #bulimia #edrecovery #life #anorexiarecovery #curvy #hk #ana #mentalillness #talktome #fighting #redhair #hkphotographer #mentaglhealth #depression #proana #anorexia #hkgirl
  • 52 1 29 minutes ago
  • We are given two options in life when the Devil 👿 tries and throws us a struggle. 🔳
We can either:
✔️ Play Victim. Hide in pain. And Let Him Win....
  • We are given two options in life when the Devil 👿 tries and throws us a struggle. 🔳 We can either: ✔️ Play Victim. Hide in pain. And Let Him Win. OR ✔️ Be the Superhero of our own life. Let the pain create perseverance. And Let GOD win. 🔲 The truth is we will never have control of what life throws at us. We will never have control of how people treat us. And we will never be able to choose what situation we are placed in 🙃 🔳 But we DO get to decide how we respond to a situation. How we respond to others. And we we get to decide and choose our reactions. 🔲 Choose wisely- who wins? ❓The Devil 👿 ❓Or Higher Power/Angel 😇 🔳 I choose the HP/Angel ✅ What about you?
  • 19 2 36 minutes ago
  • Доброе утро, бабочки.❇
Мотивация📃++не я+🇷🇺+
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Good morning, butterflies.
Motivation📃 ++ is not me + 🇷🇺 +
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  • Доброе утро, бабочки.❇ Мотивация📃++не я+🇷🇺+ --------------------- Good morning, butterflies. Motivation📃 ++ is not me + 🇷🇺 + ---------------------
  • 7 1 39 minutes ago
  • EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!! My exam was kinda all over the place (by which I mean I was all over the place) but I think it went OK? ANYWAY went to vegan c...
  • EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!! My exam was kinda all over the place (by which I mean I was all over the place) but I think it went OK? ANYWAY went to vegan caf with my bff for lunch after and had a mac and cheese wrap? Which is obvs very scary but v good oml I've been craving complex carbs in mass quantities for so long. AND LAURA DABBED AGAIN
  • 13 2 40 minutes ago
  • I got a few take-aways from tonight’s meeting I think I really needed. I felt really uncomfortable through a lot of it because I’ve been wrestling ...
  • I got a few take-aways from tonight’s meeting I think I really needed. I felt really uncomfortable through a lot of it because I’ve been wrestling my own issues a lot and everyone else’s energies n stuff were overwhelming to me, so much so that I wanted to bolt. I feel like I’ve been running from my feelings though lately and I knew that if I make a pattern of that, it’s going to lead to me relapsing in some way. So I breathed through my discomfort, and I faced it. I usually am one of the first ones to leave out the door after a meeting is done, but I challenged myself to stay and I talked with people and I actually felt so much better and more connected after that. The Big Book says that selfishness and self-centeredness is the root of our disease. For me that is so true (even though that’s not all of it). And part of why I’ve felt so dissatisfied and negative lately is because I get so wrapped up in ME. My feelings, my inconveniences, my resentments, my failures, my inadequacies. I haven’t had the capacity to support other people, even some of my closest friends, like I want to because I’ve been living so self-absorbed. I felt BETTER after I reached out to two struggling friends there and offered my support. So that’s one of the big take-aways: I’m going to try and do at least 3 things a day for another person or reach out to them even if I don’t feel like it. I’m also going to try and make it to more meetings a week and talk to more people in the program. And most of all, I’m going to work on giving things to God instead of trying to do everything my way. I think the ways that I still try and control and compartmentalize my life are keeping me stuck and unhappy. I have to search outside myself.
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  • If you do not yet have one, I recommend you put together a recovery plan. I understand that it isn’t necessarily a “fun” thing to do, but when you ...
  • If you do not yet have one, I recommend you put together a recovery plan. I understand that it isn’t necessarily a “fun” thing to do, but when you struggle it is helpful to have one that you can review. Wondering what to include in a recovery plan? Some ideas to start with... •A therapist that is trained in eating disorders, has good boundaries, is compassionate and will challenge you •An eating disorder dietitian (important that they are trained in eating disorders) •If on psych meds, a psychiatrist that is proficient in eating disorders •Your meal plan (have multiple copies of it) •A sleep routine •Support people you can turn to when needing support •A support group you can attend •Parameters to when you can exercise, for how long, and when exercising is not in your best interest •Coping skills for meals, emotion regulation, mindfulness Add to this list to include what is good for you! 💙
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  • Bulk going well. Can you guess my weight?
  • Bulk going well. Can you guess my weight?
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  • I graded music theory assignments for almost 6 hours today. I also made a roast, which I’ve never done before. I finally cried. My feet are freezin...
  • I graded music theory assignments for almost 6 hours today. I also made a roast, which I’ve never done before. I finally cried. My feet are freezing but I’m too cold as tired to get up and get a pair of socks. My alarm goes off in 6 hours. Flannel sheets are the best. Goodnight. #gradschool #musictheory #musicschool #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery
  • 12 0 1 hours ago
  • Breakfast on a beautiful rainy day ;which is really calming .I made a sandwich half eggplant dip with veggies and half crushed red pepper sauce wit...
  • Breakfast on a beautiful rainy day ;which is really calming .I made a sandwich half eggplant dip with veggies and half crushed red pepper sauce with veggies ,accompanied with a tomato and cucumber ,and a banana larger than my head 😂😂 - - - I have a very strong feeling that the English test will be rescheduled because of the heavy rain since lots of streets are flooded and not all students can come which is kind of a reliever because I genuinely am not in the mood for an English test .Today is Thursday which is the beginning of weekend (basically Friday for you guys ) so I can’t wait to come back home aand just do nothing ! Have a nice day guys and keep on fighting xx
  • 10 2 1 hours ago
  • МАМА ВМЕШИВАЕТСЯ В ОТНОШЕНИЯ?
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Стоит оговориться, что моя мама воспитана в соотвествии правилам старой школы: «женщина должна/обязана, мужчина не ...
  • МАМА ВМЕШИВАЕТСЯ В ОТНОШЕНИЯ? ⠀ Стоит оговориться, что моя мама воспитана в соотвествии правилам старой школы: «женщина должна/обязана, мужчина не должен блюсти ‘женские’ обязанности по ведению дома» и т.п Чтоб вы понимали, она не считает обязательным для мужчины помыть за собой тарелку. На этом всё. Осуждать её взгляды не буду, но ⠀ Я так жить не хочу. Не хочу обслуживать, а потом замалчивать и тихо беситься, что «мне недодали» ⠀ Наш со Славой табор качует из одного дома в другой, и временами его пробивает на поесть 😹 Мне неловко при его родных, ему – при моих. Поэтому готовим вместе. И, если у него дома никто не вмешивается в это дело, то у меня происходит примерно вчерашняя ситуация: Спрашиваю, что он хочет поесть. Вмешивается мама, начинает советовать мясо. Говорю, его надо размораживать, Славе скоро на работу. «О чем ты вообще думала?! Че ты тут ходила? Надо было раньше для него это сделать! Пельмени там лежат!». Это все при Славе. Сказать, что я ахереваю каждый раз, когда она так делает – не сказать ничего (да, это не первый) 😐 Все её фразы звучат как обвинение в том, что я «херовая девушка», хотя я не навязываю Славе еду (как и он мне), а даю право выбора, чтобы ему было комфортно и он не давился тем, что не хочет. ⠀ Слава сам прекрасно готовит; как и я, на 1 раз, т.е готовим мы часто. Сам факт готовки на чужой кухне давит, о вмешательстве как-бы в наши отношения уже говорить не стоит, да? ⠀ Самое ужасное – я боюсь, что он подумает, что такая модель поведения «девушки в отношениях» для меня норма, и начнёт вести себя со мной ‘соответствующе’. ⠀ Если меня просят, или у меня появляется желание порадовать кого-то чем-то мною приготовленным, с удовольствием это делаю, и я не хочу превращать этот процесс в типичную российскую бытовуху, в которой «женщина обязана обслужить весь дом» ⠀ Хранительница очага – никак не про женщину в роли наемной кухарки. ⠀ Может, вы сталкивались с подобным и поймёте меня? В любом случае, спасибо за то, что уделили этому посту время :3 Буду рада, если вы оцените его тли оставите комментарий 💕 #слововете
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  • it’s 4.30am. can’t sleep. decide to try read a book. this is on page 1. 
i have a pre ED me and a ED me. can’t figure out who recovery me is. what ...
  • it’s 4.30am. can’t sleep. decide to try read a book. this is on page 1. i have a pre ED me and a ED me. can’t figure out who recovery me is. what kind of person am i now? and who should i be? i’m not so sure. i hope i figure it out soon.
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  • Here’s a motivational tip for the day: get your shit together.
You’re welcome ☺️
  • Here’s a motivational tip for the day: get your shit together. You’re welcome ☺️
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  • Having a pretty 💩 night but whatever. I can’t act on my emotions, I need to take care of myself. That means going to bed soon rather than dwelling...
  • Having a pretty 💩 night but whatever. I can’t act on my emotions, I need to take care of myself. That means going to bed soon rather than dwelling on life’s curveballs. I am the queen of making myself sadder and sadder. And I just don’t need to go down that path tonight.
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  • wiNk wOnK
  • wiNk wOnK
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  • third hoodie i’ve stolen from my bumblebee. this one’s my favorite ☺️💕
  • third hoodie i’ve stolen from my bumblebee. this one’s my favorite ☺️💕
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  • pretty boy 💕🐝
  • pretty boy 💕🐝
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  • Happy Wednesday! Halfway through this week thankfully :) Schools getting busy lately with science and math projects but luckily it keeps me occupie...
  • Happy Wednesday! Halfway through this week thankfully :) Schools getting busy lately with science and math projects but luckily it keeps me occupied at home 💗 Baked these delicious brownies with my mom tonight. Baking is starting to become a “regular” thing and I love it sm, especially when i’m having a blast with my family. Recover for times like this 🙂 These brownies were so ooey gooey 🤤 Couldn’t say no when i was offered an extra piece. Saying no will only bring in anorexia’s control more. To let go, we must fight against those thoughts. Having an extra piece will not make me gain a hundred pounds, life is okay and i’m still me:)✨✨ Gaining weight has brought me to realize that it doesn’t change how others think of me and how i am as a person. I’m still me, and it wasn’t the end of the world. Most importantly, I’m on a way to a healthier and happier life 🌟💪🏼 No one will hate you or judge you. And if they do, you don’t deserve to have those negative people in your life. If anyone is struggling, just remind all the positives and benefits of recovery. The list is endless, goes on and on, and definitely dominates over anorexia 🙄 Keep fighting warriors you are all stronger than you think you are. Challenge yourselves today and it will get much easier, I promise💕💕
  • 15 2 2 hours ago
  • Story time: so the other day I was at target with my mom getting some long sleeve shirts and I was wearing the exact same shirt in a different colo...
  • Story time: so the other day I was at target with my mom getting some long sleeve shirts and I was wearing the exact same shirt in a different color right? And so I picked up the shirt(a medium) and she just gives me this look. And so I look at her like what? And she is like are you sure that will fit you? And I’m like yeah I’m wearing this exact shirt, check the size. And she checks my shirt and gets all quiet and then says that it was an XL and I legit felt myself panicking like really??? And then she goes just kidding, you’re right it’s a medium. Anybody else have freak outs like that? #thinsporational #meanspo #thighgapp #ana #skinnylegs #thin #notpro #mia #anorexiarecovery
  • 4 0 2 hours ago
  • I feel most free from anorexia when I have a high sense of self identity. When I know who I am. Therefore, I know the person I really am does not n...
  • I feel most free from anorexia when I have a high sense of self identity. When I know who I am. Therefore, I know the person I really am does not need anorexia. I fight everyday to become her. I fight everyday to beat my limiting beliefs and anxiety. To beat the doubt that stops me from doing things, and the voice that says I don’t deserve or won’t be able to handle the things that go right. I fight to stop the cycle of self punishment, and to finally face life head on. A life that makes me happy without harming my health or my family. A life with more fulfillment and less false security. More joy and less criticism. ⠀ ⠀ As scary as life may be at times, it is less scary than the amount of fear that surfaces each day when struggling with an eating disorder. Anorexia has taken the light out of my life since I was 12, and I refuse to let it come into my adult life. When I get out of hospital this time, I am done fearing weight gain and being obsessive and controlling with food. I’m going to listen to my body more with a good understanding of how much I need, and I’ll eat more without guilt if I want to. I love myself and deserve to be happy whether or not I eat the cleanest most nutritional foods all day everyday. I have waisted too much of my thinking space worried about food. I have much greater things to focus my energy on, and I am more than capable of handling whatever comes my way. I am strong, and this battle only makes a person stronger. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ Skinner: NOT prettier, not more energetic, not happier, not healthier, not more worthy❗️
  • 217 22 2 hours ago
  • Lunching n munching on some v v v scary but v v v good lunch 🤩. Mum made noodles w broccoli, spinach, pumpkin and avocado (!!!). 🥑🥦
- fucking av...
  • Lunching n munching on some v v v scary but v v v good lunch 🤩. Mum made noodles w broccoli, spinach, pumpkin and avocado (!!!). 🥑🥦 - fucking avocado who am I lmao, feeling very guilty and worked up about this but just gotta stay positive and remind myself that I deserve food and my body can’t fucking function without it 👌🏻 - #recipes #lunch #healthy #avocado #sweetpotato #anorexiarecovery #anoreixa #eatingdisorderrecovery
  • 14 0 2 hours ago
  • going running tomorrow. need to lose like 10lbs before thursday.
  • going running tomorrow. need to lose like 10lbs before thursday.
  • 10 1 2 hours ago
  • I AM ALLOWED TO BE ME
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No Negativity November day 14!
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You know what? Ed takes way too much away from you...your friends, your family, your life,...
  • I AM ALLOWED TO BE ME . No Negativity November day 14! . You know what? Ed takes way too much away from you...your friends, your family, your life, your passions, and ESPECIALLY your individuality. Ed covers up the REAL you. And 👏 that 👏 is 👏 not 👏 okay! You deserve to BE YOURSELF. That's what we're here for right? We're here to just be who we are! And Ed doesn't have the right to take that away! Eating disorders take over our entire identity, and sometimes it really can feel like our eating disorders ARE our identities, when that is so far from true. You are NOT your eating disorder. You are not your depression, you are not your anxiety, you ARE NOT YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS. Recovery allows you to finally let go of that mask you've been hiding behind called Ed. You are finally ALLOWED to be you. When you are locked up in Ed's world, you only get to do what Ed says. Whatever Ed says, goes. And YOU need to say, hey Ed, I'm done pretending to be someone I'm not. I want to be ME. AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME! I know it can be scary, because if we've been covered up by our eating disorder for so long, sometimes we even forget who we really are...but the great thing about recovery is that you can rediscover yourself, and you can finally feel free to do what YOU want to do, not what Ed wants. Let go and find yourself, the version of you where your eating disorder isn't in control. You get to be who you want, Ed does not get to decide that. It will take time, but you have a whole life ahead of you to figure out who you are. That gives me so much hope, and I can say now that I feel so much more like myself than I've ever felt, ever since I kicked Ed out the door. I still struggle sometimes, of course, and Ed still likes to creep around, but I've rediscovered WHITNEY. I am allowed to be me again. And so are you!
  • 16 1 2 hours ago
  • Dinner was an egg sandwich 🥪 1 scrambled egg +2 whole grain toast +1/2 cup of almond milk coffee ☕️ because I was surprisingly hungry 🤔
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La ce...
  • Dinner was an egg sandwich 🥪 1 scrambled egg +2 whole grain toast +1/2 cup of almond milk coffee ☕️ because I was surprisingly hungry 🤔 ••• La cena fue un sándwich de huevo 🥪 1 huevo revuelto +2 tostadas de pan integral +1/2 de café en leche de almendras ☕️ porque estaba sorprendentemente con mucha hambre 🤔
  • 11 1 2 hours ago
  • I can’t even begin to express how important they are to me and the impact that i will take away from them❤️😭
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To be totally honest I never thou...
  • I can’t even begin to express how important they are to me and the impact that i will take away from them❤️😭 . . To be totally honest I never thought this day would come. For the past six years I have been in a cycle that feels endless and I just figured that this is what life is and it just is the way it is. When I was first admitted to the hospital for inpatient on June 8th, 2017, I had no intention of even considering the possibility of life without an eating disorder. My eating disorder made me feel special and cared about because for me it was like a baby blanket for a child and when you try to rip the blanket away from the child, you will most likely get push back and they could potentially retreat within themselves. I left on November 14th, 2017, and I knew that I had no intention to recover and once I got out I couldn’t wait to go back into my old habits. Since then, including this stay at Clementine, I have been to treatment a total of 7 times. I thought recovery would just magically happen and that by sitting back and doing nothing I would somehow make changes and think differently about myself. I realize now after being at Clementine that no one can do recovery without the help and support of others and honestly, as you all know I wanted to be independent and recover on my own. After being able to experience some of the things that life has to offer here at Clementine, I have finally decided that I commit to recovery. I commit to accepting all the bumps in the road that come with recovery and I commit that after potential set backs I will just stand up again, but this time stronger. Thanks to the Clementine staff and girls I can now see my goals very clearly where as before I knew what I wanted but it was extremely clouded due to my eating disorder constantly whispering into my ear that I need my eating disorder. I feel truly honored that I got to come to New York and be apart of this amazing program. I commit to taking all that I was taught and incorporating these skills/statements into my daily life. I truly realize my purpose in life now and I feel so blessed that I was able to get this reality check.
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